Attempted to study 'cause of bff's letter. She's the best, I swear. Mad love her and she's so sweet, gonna try to study again tmr! :> And she's in Macau nw, aww. Miss her. :) Ended up people watching.

And the funny thing is, after I went to shit (Oops.) and I came back, there was a fucking fly in my cup. And it was like, half dead. It was still trying to get itself out of my coffee. Well too fucking bad. Nobody asked it to fly right into my cup.

Still not in the mood for pictures, sorry.

This week was a um, emotional wreckage suicidal crazy mood swings breath taking week. Oh this might get a teensy weensy bit too personal so if you don't like personal then gtfo my blog.

The usual happy lazy days where we do almost nothing and just chat w my fav girl. Then there's those other crazy days when I just let myself go on an emotional rollar coaster.

Aiyah whtever I'm gna stop being sad when people don't talk to me/don't include me/don't say hi or bye to me 'cause if not I'll be sad 24/7. :) Gotta accept the fact tht I'm just not important to some people, or most people. LOL wtf I feel like sucha emo bitch nw. Sometimes I hate myself hahaha fatty.

K whtever sorry, no pictures 'cause momma's not in the mood for pictures, yo.

I miss us. :(

And I miss you. :)

Even your ridiculously long fringe. Only because.

Wall.

Ikea w Von and Beatiz today. :> xo

The food there is so damn good. :D Meatballs, chicken wings, hot dogs and diam cakes. Just everything man, I could eat there everyday. (Okay maybe not.) Had fun chatting non-stop and stuff. :) Hmm, and not to mention 'stealing' iced tea and getting stares frm old people. (Y) Love you girls. 

And movie + drinks + fatness last night w zx and zq. Hehe I had so much fun, rly. Or maybe it was just the drinks. But whtever I wna do it again! :>

Pfft, blurry pictures but hey. Don't blame me, blame the sucky lighting plus the fact tht I forgot to on my flash. :p

 

 

 

So, I was thinking.

Monday: Ikea w my favourite girl, Beatriz. :>

Tuesday: Kbox + movie? @Vernis @Pyone @Si Ying @Alyssa @QQ @Von @Clique

Wednesday: Studying + swimming? @Beatriz @Billy @Brandon @Alaric @Gabriel @Ken @Bryan

Thursday: Lunch + studydate? @Vernis @Pyone @Si Ying

Friday: -

Text me, baby! :D

Don't be decieved by the smiles, my life is a hugeass ball of fuckness.

It's like, insecurities just bitchslapped me in the face and they're burning frm the insides. Motherfucker. !@#$%^&*() Wish I was prettier, wish I was skinnier, wish I could be a better person, wish I was your object of desire, wish I was good enough.

I'm nvr good enough, for anything. Or anyone.

Seeing people, my friends going gaga over someone, I feel so damn happy for them but I'm a selfish bitch and can't help wondering why wouldn't anyone do tht for me. Seeing people in love, and wondering why I'm not. Omg just fuck this shit why am I even feeling this way? I feel like sucha bigass bimbo/bitch sometimes I should just go fuck a dolphin, seriously.

Sorry today was such a bore. @Alaric @Billy @Brandon

But I enjoyed your company, even if you didn't enjoy mine. Just wna let you guys knw tht you're awesome and I'll always love you even though you lie to me just to make me feel good hahaha.

Played soccer and I sucked but it was fun but I prolly screwed it up anyway, just like how I screw everything else up. Embarrassed myself and stuff but w/e.

Skipped sch yesterday and here are the pics of myself frm two nights back: